1/16/13

 She and Drugs

Udiah

Void, empty, hollow inside
My dreams have fled, my hopes have died
Existence has no reason
Life's just passing with each season

She was my life, my hope, my love
All is gone, passed by thereof
The hurt is such no one should bear
What's to life, why should I care?

I weep all night for my love gone
My heart is sick, for death I long
Mine eyes well tears for love that's lost
I'll mourn always for the great cost

But in each day Lord give me hope
Strengthen me so I may cope
Grant me wisdom to help me seeThy great way and not just me.

I choose this poem because it is rarely related in my life. I'm stock in my everyday life, it's because every time i remember whats my past is very painful. My girl is my drug from time to time. " Lakas ng tama nung naging kami, mas lumakas ang tama nung nagtagal kami at mas pinakamalakas na yung tama nung nagka hiwalay kami. " sorry for translating it in tagalog. My life was very affected. It changed my life story, my behavior, my ways, my standards and in my attitude a little. In this poem said that no matter how hard you encounter trials in your life, there will be always a light that leads you to the opening to pursue what you have started and what you want in your life. It's always reminding us that God's presence is always there for us to lead us in our path. By that time occurs my heart speaks louder than my mind, its always been the heart who decides when it comes to my loneliness attacks and when I feel alone. It affects my daily routine in my life. It changes everything.

In this line is very interesting to me, " The hurt is such no one should bear " for me it's like " No one feels the way I do. " its me, im always me, its always been me! Sorry for being emotional or slight drama. Thats all I can say and thank you.